Searching for inspiration

After writing my on pastiche i have no finally finished the fisr chapter of my own created story. Its still pretty. I have made a big effort to get this chapter completed and i'm still not satisfied with it. It's to short and so less sensitive that you will feel nothing by reading it when I actually wanted it to be the most emotional writing ever made, the most horrifying thing mankind can create.
Anyway, my work wasn't enough and i didn't achieve to manage it. After finishing this thing I will concentrate better on it even if I must work.
Firt of all but, i will do my very best tp get through the last tests and after it, if I manage it to pass all the exams, selectivitat. I'm realistic about it and i know that i must work as hard as i can and that i can't achieve my goals if i don't work hard for them. Its just like writing: studying and practising improve your skills and make you better step after.
After all i just have to remember the picture of me as an criminologist as well as a author, more or less comonly known.
Anyway, in a few weeks we'll have holidays and so the good time of working starts. As we all know: first work, than pleasure, and so i have to wait until saturdays and sundays if i want to go to the beach or visiting friends of mine in barcelona... As stressfull as school can be.

I deserve every student i know the best wishes and good look for their exams indue to i know how they must feel now. Don't give up and remember your goals. They are the most important thing in live, and the engine that makes you working. Without wishes, things would be more than less interesting.